love is rare, life is strange, nothing lasts, people change
Things have been tough on a personal level lately. Things that really didn't have to happen right now. I deal with the stresses of being sick, getting treatment, trying to finish school and find a job. I know I don't really look sick on the outside, but there is a lot going on on the inside physically. Living in my apartment for the next two weeks will be interesting. I'll be fine. I just wish it didn't have to be the way it is. One more headache. I need summer to begin.
I've been going to a variety of specialists lately to get myself checked out and make sure there isn't anything else that's crazy business going on. Apparently the stretch marks on my stomach are abnormally deep so I need to see a dermatologist. That's a bit disheartening. All the oil and lotion and crap I've been dousing myself with may have been in vain.
So, good news! I'm staying in Boston. My wonderfully supportive and over protective mother will be shipping back to Florida soon. As much as she tore my nerves up, I'm going to miss her. It was nice to always have company. I didn't have a chance to really be lonely. I mean, I did feel lonely at times...but it was nice to see someone was actually there. I've also been doing better about getting back in touch with friends. I'm trying to live it up as much as possible before I graduate. Salvage whatever last senior semester I have left. I need to surround myself with people who exude positive energy. good vibes and love.
I've also been applying for jobs. I hope to have one by the time I graduate. We'll see. I've heard back from 3 of them. Cross your fingers that one of them likes me enough. I need a job. I need the money. I need to not fail at life.
I should really get some sleep. Chemo in 6 hours. Tomorrow is going to be a long day.
I've been going to a variety of specialists lately to get myself checked out and make sure there isn't anything else that's crazy business going on. Apparently the stretch marks on my stomach are abnormally deep so I need to see a dermatologist. That's a bit disheartening. All the oil and lotion and crap I've been dousing myself with may have been in vain.
So, good news! I'm staying in Boston. My wonderfully supportive and over protective mother will be shipping back to Florida soon. As much as she tore my nerves up, I'm going to miss her. It was nice to always have company. I didn't have a chance to really be lonely. I mean, I did feel lonely at times...but it was nice to see someone was actually there. I've also been doing better about getting back in touch with friends. I'm trying to live it up as much as possible before I graduate. Salvage whatever last senior semester I have left. I need to surround myself with people who exude positive energy. good vibes and love.
I've also been applying for jobs. I hope to have one by the time I graduate. We'll see. I've heard back from 3 of them. Cross your fingers that one of them likes me enough. I need a job. I need the money. I need to not fail at life.
I should really get some sleep. Chemo in 6 hours. Tomorrow is going to be a long day.
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